sadly enough

so i'm watching 50 first dates. yeah...sad i know. but it made me kinda think of all the relationships that have been, could have been and/or should have been. i think about all the effort i've tried to put in... all the sacrifices i try or have tried to make. i really don't know what's up. is it me? am i pickin all the wrong ones? i mean...all the people that know me, i'll put in the effort. or i'll try my hardest. i'm that type who will treat a girl how she should be treated. like in the movie, i'll give that effort to make her fall in love with me everyday. whatever it takes. give her her time and her space. listen to her problems and help solve. yeah i know, i don't have all the answers. nobody does. maybe that shit doesn't exist. it's all too surreal. maybe i am too nice. or i try to make everything too perfect. and i know that's an impossible task. and that's where i realize that i'm getting taken advantage of. and it has happened. i know for a fact that i don't want that shit to happen again. and what happens??? another heartbreak for jeff. it's happened all too much. do i wanna give up? you know...patience is a virtue, but when you've been as patient as i've been, it can only last so long. sorry audience, sappy post i know. with a lot of time on your hands, can't help but think about that shit. ok i guess i'm done for now. i'll write again when i figure more shit out...

but otherwise....shout out to mak haha =)